Dark, Light, Dark, Light

The main point in the feedback was that this was not only a strong piece of work but I also hadn’t really gone into any background or explanation of the piece itself. I think this is because it was so in the moment, it was something I created without much introspection or thought, which was another point in the feedback. ‘There is a feeling that the greater sense of flow in your work is when is it less ‘forced’ or ‘laboured’.‘

This is definitely true and something I have noticed, when I don’t try as hard the work comes easier.

I’m going to think about creating more works like this, when I’m going for walks, when I’m already in flow, when I’m already relaxed. Maybe for the voice over I will experiment more with written poetry spoken over the top of the footage. Or, like Dark, Light, Dark, Light, I will just use words that I feel fit over the top in the moment.

DoomScroll

The feedback asks what I meant by ‘*“I feel it’s the closest to a ‘ritualistic’ practice I’ve gotten.”* ‘… I think I was referring to the feelings I had in my body coming out into the work directly. I just let it create for me without really thinking about the outcome of the piece.

Mechanical Gut

I feel like rethinking this entirely, maybe conceptually. The issue I’m seeing happening with LLMS seems to be getting worse so theres more to talk about, I feel like theres a better means of creation with this piece and money being a factor means what I’d like to create is limited. This feels like a piece I want to research, although I’m stepping out of that with other pieces I’m really genuinely interested in the phenomenon that draws us to confiding in machines. And I feel more research could bring me to a clearer more real idea.

Take Your Fear Outside

Again, there was a note that I hadn’t really gone into much detail for this. The projections for me, are a way to take something that people get repeatitively stuck in out into the ‘real world’. There is a such a blur now between the physical and the digital world and I want to immerse the physical with the digital. I think it takes the ‘holed up in your room in the dark scrolling on your phone’ and puts it out into the real world.

We’re also often taught that when our mental health is bad, going outside can help break the cycle. I believe its the same with a digital cycle of doomscrolling

Using my voice

Jonathan has mentioned a few times about using my voice more. I feel I will be doing this in the videos similar to doomscroll, maybe thinking of these more as spoken word poetry over them rather than voiceover.

I feel there is potential to create a piece in place of Mechanical Gut that also uses my voice. Do I create voice pieces to do with LLMS? Conversations with LLMS? This is something I’m still thinking on

Ritualised Drawings/ Paintings

I’d like to create more of these, always directly trying to solve an issue like it was with the stress of research paper writing. Right now, for example, I could create a piece to deal with the pain of the blood clot in my leg. I may extend this into paintings aswell.

The week after we start back with lectures on Tuesday, I’m beginning a Drawing and Theory Course at The Royal Drawing School, which will teach me theory in the morning and drawing practice in the afternoon every Thursday. I’m looking forward to learning more practical technique and I’m hoping this will lend itself to this aspect of my practice.