I was up late last night thinking of potential pieces I could create. I had a random visual of a room with two giant videos of two people interacting with each other over zoom. Almost like they’re digitally facing one another. A conversation between someone from the more affulent side of my life and the community projects I’m involved in. In the space between I place objects that represents the things that cause disparity.

I felt sick. At the idea of using people in this way, and it crossed my mind that the conversations could becoming patronising, or heated in the bad sense. And my involvment in that made me nervous. I have a kind of moral OCD, ruminating over whether something I’ve done is ‘Bad’ or ‘good’. Or rather, ‘Just’ or ‘unjust’ and i can feel this already starting to hinder even the ideas that come through my mind.

If anything the process and practice of ‘just going for it’ will help me to undo this bind. To maybe show myself how much this can limit the thoughts, feelings and creative expression.